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2009-06-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

Dad, I know you made the choice and we all respect it. I know it's hard for you, a active person, always running around new places, trying out new things to be confined at home, staring at 4 walls everyday. I know you took the easier way out for yourself as well as for us. Don't worry about us, I've already grown up and I'll take your place at home. I'll look after mum and sister, as well as your little granddaughter.

Ah ma told us your Kai Ye brought you away and told us not to worry about you. I believe you are with ah ye now, telling him about me as well as his great granddaughter. Rest assured that I'll grow up into a person like you, well respected by everybody. I just want you to know that we all love you and we will remember you always. Thank you daddy for accompanying me for the past 20 years of my life. I will miss you..

Rest In Peace Daddy.

2009-04-24T18:35:00.001+08:00

Dad, stop sleeping, it's time to wake up already. We are all waiting for you at home, little Katelyn is calling "Ah Gong Ah Gong" everyday. Hurry up open your eyes and wake up!

2009-04-12T18:58:00.003+08:00

Read his post earlier on and decided to let the hidden chapter out.

Z didn't like her at all. Z wanted to really see who likes her more and waiting to make that first move. Both E and B are very shy people. They never let others know what they are feeling but I guess Z can somehow tell. Z wanted to give both E and B the killer blow by telling them that he likes her too and is already making his moves but it seems like instead of giving them a helping hand, it seems like he's pushing both of them down the cliff. Z was really guilty because he didn't think that this will happen, he thought that they will fight for their own happiness but the thing is, he didn't expect both to just back out just like that. All of them claim to be buddies but it seems like they don't know what Z has up his sleeve? Isn't it quite obvious that Z is purposely letting both E and B knows that he likes her. It's like telling them secretly that if you don't act, the girl will be gone. The message he is trying to deliver is that the girl will be gone BUT Z WON'T BE THE ONE TAKING HER AWAY!

One fine night, Z realised that her manager has like something for her and it's not as simple as it seems. Z found out that her manager likes her and is like super protective over her. The manager LIKES HER AS WELL but she is scared to like offend her because the manager treats her quite good and therefore she decided to like turn all of them down. Till today Z still wants to get both of them but it seems like none of them really cares about each other now because of her. I believe that Z used a wrong approach to solve the matter. If B and E still thinks that Z really did wrong this time, he will apologise but he wants both of them to know his true intentions.

2009-04-12T18:36:00.002+08:00

It's really been quite some time. Well I guess just to cut short, I got enlisted to NS and well I got into BMTC school 1 Apache Company. Rowdy people, great bunk mates. I'll really never forget them. We been through shit and of course the happy moments together. Things like field camp where all of the officers tekan us big time and I remember how we always have to high kneel and my knee is not exactly in a very good shape ar. Then there's hand grenade where I remember I was so damn fucking scared when I entered the bay but after seeing Lt Faiz, I really felt better. I guess it's also his job to make us less tense because his life is on the line as well, hahaha.

Well I enlisted on the 031208 and I passed out on the 180309. To be honest, I still miss those guys, people like Raja who never fails to get into stupid trouble, Shu Liang my buddy, Benji Kok who is always late and does things in a super weird manner. Our very own Section Commander 3SG Ibrahim who never fail to knock me down all the time because I have to do stupid things. Well those were the beautiful days.

Now I'm posted to Signals Institute and tomorrow I got like a exercise. It says till the next day but I seriously hope that we can complete everything by night time and pull back. It seriously won't be funny to do everything as they planned because if that's the case then we will end like 3am on Tuesday and we have activities. Speaking of which, I'll be doing guard duty this Friday, in short, 1 less night of CV life at the comfort of my own home but well compared to those people doing guard duty on a Saturday, I think I'm considered lucky already.

Well that's like more or less it for my NS life so far, another 3 more weeks to go before I get posted out to another unit. I guess that's more or less it.

On the other hand, somehow I feel that people around me are like leaving me slowly? I've been having weird dreams of people asking me to take care of myself when they are gone. First is my mum and now it's the crazy girl. Well Amanda is leaving quite soon and the crazy girl will be going overseas most of the time? She just got back from Taiwan but she will be like going to Hong Kong in August? Well she said she got herself a job where she will start to work there for around 3 years and then they will start to like make her fly around. Besides she don't have plans to stay in Singapore already. I guess I'll really be left all alone soon.

Sighs, oh well, let's just pray for the best. I really hope that crazy girl won't leave. If you really have to, please bring me along wherever you will go.

2008-11-27T02:12:00.002+08:00

Damn, it's been like really long. Was lazy to like update my blog, nothing much to update. My life was like waiting for time to pass. Nothing really much happened.

Well in just like about 6 more days, I'll be gone already, not that I'm dead though, I guess most of you guys know it bah.

Staying over at my sister's place for the past 5 days already, been really enjoying it, get to sleep in a nice little room, can play their whatever rubbish and best thing is, I can get to watch movie with them in their mini "theater" at night. Watched quite a few movies already. They still took off on Monday just to like company me and stuff, hahaha, somehow makes me feels like I'm going to die anytime soon.

Sad to say, I guess I'll be going back later at night. Still need to do some shopping for my great camp and I still need to work on Friday and Saturday. Now that I think of it, I might consider not to work on Friday so I can just get 1 full day to shop. It seems like time really flies, I was still taken aback that time and now I'm learning to become a real man (I guess).

I thought I was going to be like super emo but no, seems like I'm more or less looking forward to it. I guess it's a good reason for my to throw some of my things while I shave my head and chiong sua in Tekong. Oh ya, speaking of which, I finally got a new aim, I aim to be able to buy clothes without much difficulties, which means. I saw this really nice shirt the other time at G2000 and I was thinking to buy it since they are like having a discount. First thought that came into my mind, the size!! After some hassle, managed to find my size but after that realised why the hell am I even buying clothes. Hahaha. Well I hope after all this rubbish, I can find size for my clothes easier? In short I want to become smaller lah! Hahaha.

I guess it's time for me to sleep already, still got a long day ahead of me.

Oei Amanda, I guess you already knew I'll reserve this special space for you. Well those times with you were seriously amazing. You kinda made me realised that there's actually slightly more to life bah. That slight more is you lo, always creating trouble for me. Well I'm glad you did because you never fail to bring the smile back to my face. You always say that I smile damn weird because you say you know what I'm not smile from the bottom of my heart, shit lah, you think too much already.

Here comes Pauline. I guess you knew it all along but you still played along with me. Sorry that I have to make this decision all over again, I guess I really need to think more about it no doubt you say that I always think too much. I mean I still feel that I'm not mature enough to handle such stuffs. It might be me throwing everything down with the excuse of going to NS but I seriously mean it. You should know me right? Remember what I said the other time when I met you, you were smiling when I told you about my plans but somehow I can feel that the smile "wasn't from the bottom of your heart" as well. (sounds familiar eh?)

2008-09-17T01:31:00.002+08:00

Well I'm back from Malaysia. Nothing really much happened. It was raining most of the time when I was there. I guess it's a good thing that I've been staying indoors. I really had lots of time to think and reflect over there (it's a much better term for stone). I mean it's not that I can't think over here but somehow being closer to nature without things like computer and the lack of interesting TV shows are actually much better for my brains. In short, boredom is actually good for you. Haha.

I was really confused and stuff but somehow the trip there kinda made me feel rejuvenated and I'm more or less fresh now. It sounds weird but yea. Thought about quite a lot of things over there. From real simple things to the more current ones that are more or less bugging me making me feel uncomfortable. Well I didn't really think of how to solve it but somehow I had a much clearer view of the situations bah. I guess I shall not continue, want to mai guan zi here.

Went to Mount E with dear Mr Choke today and company him while he's doing his medical check up. Sat there, read the news and had some boredom. Do you guys actually think I'll let go of this good chance to think of stuffs again? HELL NO. Hahaha. Went to walk around town after collecting Geraldine's phone from her work place and send it to repair. Went home after sending the phone for repair for dinner with my parents at the temple. It's like the Birthday or something of Sun Wu Kong and stuff lah. Food there was alright only, nothing special about it.

Hmmm, going for dim sum with Choke in the morning later. Well I guess that's about it, keep ya updated.

2008-09-09T11:07:00.002+08:00

You were always there when I needed help.

Are you contented just by living in the shadows, always looking out for me and "jump out" when I needed help?

I seriously think you deserve better but I guess I won't be the one providing it.

2008-08-26T02:20:00.002+08:00

Back to blog again. Not really busy for the past few weeks, just kinda lazy to actually blog. I guess it's because I got nothing much to blog. Let's start with today. Went to Suki Sushi finally to enjoy their lunch buffet. Man, it's really amazing compared to Sakae Sushi. Really enjoyed their Gouza or known as fried dumpling. There's actually meat in them!!! Hahaha. It tastes more like those Chinese Guo1 Tie4 because you can taste a little of the Gu Cai in them.

Went to Sam's place after that, passed him my PSP so that he can put Yu i Oh Tag Force 2 into my PSP. I can finally play with the God cards. I believe one of the first things I'll do is to experiment with the God cards and play around with them. Went back to Jurong Point after that and wanted to watch 4bia actually. It's a Thai horror movie and I saw the trailer and I feel that it should be great. I mean the movie is actually 4 stories and they call it 4bia, really great effort of them. Well sadly, we kinda missed the movie and we thought of catching Meet Dave instead. It's also another great show, really really funny. I think the line I'll remember is "my name is Ming Chang" Hahaha. I guess that's more or less it for the day.

Well the past few days I've really been thinking about it. I guess it will sound like I'm writing my will again but who cares man, I'll just continue with it. Been talking a lot to my "Baby" Pauline a lot for the past few weeks. It seems like this special relationship with no commitment and stuff is much easier to handle and it has less pressure compared to the past. It seems like she's the one benefiting from this though. Well she got herself a listening ear and seriously, why just can't I turn her down? It's another complicated feeling again.

Oh I guess I'm not going to talk about that again. People say as one age and you are without a spouse or a girlfriend, you will tend to lose confidence in yourself. Is it really true? In short, after you are past your "prime" age, it's much harder to find a girlfriend or boyfriend and the reason is not becase you are not physically attractive but it's because you can't get past yourself. The barrier or hurdle that you set for youself thinking that the hurdle is always too high for you to jump over. Well like I said, it's a hurdle that you place it yourself. Firstly, it's a IMAGINARY hurdle and secondly it's placed in YOUR mind. In short, it doesn't exist and even if it does, you are the one who placed it. Why can't we just lower or just totally remove the hurdle in our minds? I think this doesn't only apply to relationship but also realising our final goal that we set in life as well.

The few guys reading this, I think you all know who you are. Do you still need me to poke you or will you prefer to push so you will go up? Well I guess I'm going start making my moves as well, it's been awhile since I'm doing this.

This is the part where things really start to get interesting.

2008-08-12T03:21:00.002+08:00

Well it's really been quite some time. I guess I'll just start with the night we all went out on Choke's birthday. It's really a great night, I really hope everyone enjoyed the night as much as me, or even more. Went to Party World at Shenton Way. K all the way till 4 in the morning. Hahaha, wanted to go Dbl O actually but well, we are kinda young for it so K-ing songs is like plan B.

Actually we just wanted to sabo Choke because we all know that he's damn shy and we all know what it will be quite a challenge for him to pick up the mic and sing. Hahahah. Suprisingly he sang quite alot of the songs that we choose. Hahaha. We sang till very high, purposely chose all those songs that are like super hard to sing.

I really hope we can go K songs again. This time I hope that we can ask Sam along. Then it will be a truely emo night for us. Not to mention the stupid things that Sam will do while singing. Hahaha.

It seems like quite a lot of things are happening to my friends around me. I think it's just that same old few just that it seems like their problems happen together. It's still the usual problem bah, relationship problems. It seems like whenever I'm the outsider, it's always easier to handle than compared to being in the situation. It's weird isn't it? Despite knowing all the potential problems in a relationship but we will still go for it.

Why is it always easier to believe the things that friend says but sometimes when other half says things, you will say yes but after that you will star tto doubt it the more you think about it. I think it's because the fear of being lied to. The more you trust or believe that person, you will get hurt when you find out that person lies to you. I guess there's something really wrong with me now. Seems like the word devote is starting to disappear slowly in my mind. I guess I shall be that way.

Oh ya, thanks to that particular person for the wonderful memories. Although it's short lived but I was really happy that time. Choke, don't give up just yet, go for it! I know you can do it. Seems like it's much easier for me to do it, I thought I'm going to feel so empty after I decided to give up "officially" but it seems much easier than I though. I guess I'm really numb to it after the incident about 5 months back.

I always have this saying, regret is not about making the wrong choices, it's about not grabbing a chance when you are given one. When one says that he regret choosing this person because of all the pain and torture that he or she give, it's just an excuse, an excuse so that they will feel better about making the wrong choice. What's a real regret is not grabbing a chance to be with someone. I've been through it and trust me, it hurts bad time.

To all my brothers, it's really alright to make the wrong choice but please Please PLEASE, when given a chance, please grab it. Even if the road leads to the wall, all you need to do is walk back and go to the other path, you might get for knocking into the wall but you will gain something in return.

I guess I said a little too much again. Brothers, please read all these. Wow, it seems like I'm like writing my will. Hahahaha.

2008-07-22T05:30:00.003+08:00

Oh well, I guess it's time to change my blog song again. Can't really remember when is the first time I actually came across this song but oh well I finally found. Somehow I just had this special feeling when I heard this song for the first time.

Sometimes I just think of it, it's really easy to love someone more and more when you start to think of the stupid things that the person does, the "cute" side of the person. However will you really love that person more even if that person dua you?? Oh well, it's just a song, I guess I shouldn't think so much about it. Well I gotta agree it's a really romantic song though.

Argh, still needa go for some fire handling course conducted by Zouk later at night at Phuture.Yes, it's Phuture, seems rather strange eh? Having lesson in the middle of the Phuture dance floor. Man, it's really a experience that not everyone get to experience, I guess I should feel proud of it. Hahaha, alright, kinda lame.

Somehow things happening around me makes me remember a scene from the movie Homerun did my Jack Neo or Pao Ba Hai Zi. It starts in the movie that this 2 kids faced problems when they do not have shoes but at the end of the movie when they had shoes, they are standing in front of the swamp. It just means that even if you got a shoe, you will continue to face problems even if you have a shoe. It's the same here, just when I thought that I'm just taking a break now, spending my own money, enjoying the days and stuff, I'm still facing problems everyday. I guess problems will come and look for us so long we are breathing. Oh well, I guess all this random stuffs are results of myself thinking too much.

Oh well, it's kinda late already, I guess I'm going to sleep already, kinda tired. Oh ya, last but not least, Happy Birthday to my Darling Sam with lots of love. Hahahaha.

Keep ya guys updated. Good night.

2008-07-20T07:01:00.004+08:00

Oh well, I was thinking of changing my blog's song but can't seem to find it on imeem. Next alternative is Youtube lucky I found a "video" with just a song. It's quite a old school song named "It's Over" by the band "Mest". I doubt many will hear of this band before. Personally I really like the song and somehow everytime I listen to this song I'll have a special feeling. Oh well it's a weird feeling to be exact. Here's the lyrics of the song, do take some time to read it.

Oh well, I've been thinking quite a lot about it. I told her a lot of stuff but I figured out that it won't work out although I hate to believe that. I'm willing to prove it BUT I'm not given a chance. Time was not my side and now, time's up. Time to face reality. I was bathing earlier on after work and all of a sudden I remembered the song.

I remembered a story about a turtle. When a turtle fights and is injured, it will withdraw back into the shell and not stick the head out for quite some time. It's vulnerable yet safe for the turtle. I guess I'm just going to do that for now, no more me for now, let my "split personality" Zombie take over until Christian feels better. Ha, I doubt she will be reading this, guys, better don't tell her ar, I've have to wear my mask until everything is better otherwise she will be angry.

You've been waiting for
You never knew for sure
Cause time was goin' by
And never asked you why

When I would talk to you
The words they went right through
Your head

But I couldn't tell
You were under her spell
She had full control
No one would ever know

How much you didn't care
Just like Sonny not Cher
The beat didn't go on

She looked at you and she said to your face
It's over, it's over
She's got a new man and it's time for you
To move over, move over
You're drunk and now you wish that you
Were sober, were sober
Cause now you can't get it out of your head
That it's over, that it's over, that it's over

She said she doesn't know
It's like the Springer show
She said that she loves you
But that she loves him too

So you keep holdin' on
Your love for her is strong
Until she says so long
And you did nothin' wrong

But this keeps happening
Time and time again
You're thinkin' to yourself
She was your only friend

But you're so fucking wrong
That you're so fucking lame
You realize you're all the same

She looked at you and she said to your face
It's over, it's over
She's got a new man and it's time for you
To move over, move over
You're drunk and mad you wish that you
Were sober, were sober
Cause now you can't get it out of your head
That it's over, that it's over, that it's over
Cause it's over, it's over, it's over
And it's over, it's over, it's over

Tell them lies and they will believe you
When you're honest they will deceive you
If you love them they will just leave you
But if you play them they will stay with you

Tell them lies and they will believe you
When you're honest they will deceive you
If you love them they will just leave you
But if you play them they will be with you

And I'll be here when she says

She looked at you and she said to your face
It's over, it's over
She's got a new man and it's time for you
To move over, move over
You're drunk and now you wish that you
Were sober, were sober
Cause now you can't get it out of your head
That it's over, that it's over, that it's over
Cause it's over
She said I'm sorry it's over
(Well it's over, it's over, it's over)
She said I'm sorry it's over
(And it's over, it's over, it's over)
She said I'm sorry it's over
(And it's over, it's over, it's over)
She said I'm sorry it's over
(And it's over, it's over, it's over)

2008-07-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

After reading some stuffs, I guess I really made a wrong choice. It's a really complicating thing now and I'm really to oblivion to it. Now that I'm stuck inside it, should I just continue to go in or to jump outta it.

My heart wants me to continue to be in but you know, brains tells me to get the fuck out.

I guess.....................................

I really don't know what to do. I need some time off.

It's really hard to balance both sides.

I should finish what I've started but how should I finish it?

2008-06-06T08:39:00.004+08:00

Hmmm, changed my blog song. Well got this song from the mighty and strong pest buster Alex. Hahaha. I heard this song quite a few times but didn't really pay much attention to it until I was told about the story about it.

Well I tried finding online and found quite a few versions. Well what I heard from Alex is that this girl got cancer and wrote and record this song just before she comitted suicide.

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你

但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了去了好远的地方

不能再陪你看日出

等不到天亮

所有回忆没去却并不容易

生死由天决定不要太伤心

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你

但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你

但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

我永远爱你

Well guys, just take time to read the lyrics and listen to the song bah. I guess I'll update you guys soon, I'm tired, time to sleep.

2008-05-16T01:56:00.002+08:00

Oh baby, it's really been QUITE awhile. Hahaha. Well nothing really much to add bah. "Graduated" from school already, just waiting for my NS letter to come now. Currently working part time at Zouk lo. Finally promoted from Cashier Labour to Senior Cashier Labour and now to part time. Hahaha. Last night was my first night as a part timer and seriously, it sucks big time. Got scolded a lot of times for those really very simple things and I always end up looking like a fool. Sighs, guess all money is hard earned.

Actually before that I was also working at Zone X but the manager thinks that I cannot handle 2 jobs which is actually quite bullshit lah. I didn't fall asleep on my job or whatever rubbish, I think it's just that I forgot to change the time because I was late for 2 days and he thinks that I'm out to like cheat him and gives me this stupid reason saying that I cannot handle 2 jobs, what rubbish. Anyway he was telling me to choose either one of the 2 jobs lo, he told me if I really love working at Zone X I can just message him and stuff but man, think about it, 1 job offers me $7 a hour and another job offers me $4 an hour, which job should I take? I think the answer is quite obvious eh?

Oh well so now I'm really quite free, other than weekends I'm really very free. My job just requires me to work on Wednesdays, Fridays and Saturdays. Oh well, who really cares about the strange working hours, as long as the job is simple and the pay is good. Hahahahaha.

Hmmmm, since I'm quite free now, I guess I'll look for Sam more often. Stay at the shop and camp for more girls. Till now I still remember this quote, "Eh? Why salty salty one?" LOL!!!! Hahaha, I don't care, I have to remind you of this.

Oh well, I guess that's more or less about it, nothing really happen in my life. Perhaps will type more if I got some major things happen in my life like, hmmmmmmmmmmmm, I strike TOTO, out of nowhere a girl runs up to me saying that the child she is carrying is mine and stuff. Alright, I guess that's quite lame.

Off now, update you guys next time.

2008-03-11T01:38:00.002+08:00

Usually I will post what I want to say to that special someone in red but today I guess there's no need for it. Every single word goes out to her.

I was telling Choke and holding my tears while I was typing a few messages to him. After today, all of a sudden I remember a line from a Korean Drama from Channel U, it goes something like, 爱一个人真的能假装不爱吗？I thought I can do it but it's really hard. I tried to be a Zombie and bury all my feelings butI failed big time. I broke down today. I love her but she's happily with another man now. It's really hard to maintain a special relationship all along. Besides I now believe that no pure friendship exist between a male and a female. Even all those stuff like close friends are bullshit.

In this special relationship that I tried hard to maintain it to a healthy scale. I also came to the conclusion that the losing end is always the one who puts down the relationship first. It's the same case for me. I put down the relationship first, froze my heart and told myself not to let it melt. I thought I did a great job, I somehow managed to convinced myself that I don't like her anymore but as we get closer, I realise that I'm wrong. All along the feeling is still deep down in my heart and today I broke down. I thought I can pretend to continue not to like her but I can't.

My heart really shattered today, I cried more than my niece usually cry in a day. I feel like shit now. I didn't sleep last night but when I lie on the bed, I will end up crying. My pillow is fucking wet now and so is the collar of my shirt. I'm crying right now even as I type this post.

I love you, I lied to myself. I don't want you to pity and don't ever say sorry to me again, you did nothing wrong. Till today, i just want to let you know that I still love you.

2008-02-24T04:12:00.003+08:00

Man, it seems like I really am updating my blog once a month. Hahaha. Well school's a bitch. Argh, fuck school. Played too hard (again) this semester. Sighs, still got AEL next Tuesday.

Something to look forward to later, we are celebrating my baby niece's first birthday tomorrow at my place. Her actual birth date is 1st of March but my Mum won't be free next weekend so well, gotta celebrate it earlier. There's going to be good food, lots of people (I really hate it) and yea, a lot of things to clean up after they leave.

For the past few months I've been thinking of the equation of success. I actually concluded that there are many possibilities to success.
1. Ability + Chance = Success
2. Ability + Father's influence = Success
3. Money + Failure + Perseverance = Success
4. Money + Luck = Success
5. Hard work + Chance = Success

Well these are the main 5 equation for success. I really wonder which category I'll fall into. Damn, I wonder next time will I be doing all those shit jobs that no idiots will want to do or will I build my own empire in the middle of CBD and when I walk down on the street, everyone knows who I am (for the good reasons of course). Damn, I guess I'm thinking too much again.

Nothing really much for me to update though, it's still the same stuff over and over again. Man, I need a part time job during the holidays. Anyone got any lobang??? Choke, faster call the car wash company lah!!!! LOL.

Hey girl, it's been quite some time. Things are really very different now. I know you will be reading this but you always won't tag. Hahahaha. Well it's your choice. Things really changed since last time. You are more mature, you have a mind of your own but it seems like no doubt things are changing, you are still you. Well I guess I'm happy though. I used to feel that you are irritating and stuff but now, you really are a changed person, changed for the better. I really hope that you can continue to be yourself and no doubt how harsh environment is, you won't change. No doubt you are saying that but I guess what you said the other night is really true, I gave it a thought and I feel that I changed quite a lot as well. I guess the others call it more "down to earth" or practical. I guess I won't interfere in your thinking and your future because I guess I'm in a worse state compared to you. Let's not get all emo again, do call or text me whenever you are free. You kept your promise and I will keep mine.

Miss you girl, stay happy always.

2008-01-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

Damn, how long has it been? Hahahaha. Hmmmm, still nothing much though. The usual stuff, I wake up, live my life and go to sleep every night. Nothing special.

Debarment list is out and it means that we can don't go for lessons already!!! Hahaha, but yea, still gotta go lah. It's not something to joke around this time round. It's still better to go to school and learn some stuff, at least when I ask the lecturer for some last minute tips he can help me because he can see my "efforts" in the module. Hahaha. Damn it, I've been damn slack for this semester. I thought I will work hard but in the end, crap. I'm still surprised that I'm not in NS. I think I better not talk about it anymore.

Chinese New Year is around the corner. SP is pushing all the papers before CNY, in fact most of my friends in SP are having their last paper early next week. If I'm not wrong, my papers are after CNY, I'm supposed to be worried during CNY but yea, I know myself, I doubt I'll give a shit about it. Hahaha

Damn, I still feel like getting a NDS Lite. Hahahaha. It's kinda cheap now but it's still not that cheap. I think I need a part time job during the holidays to earn that NDS Lite. I was thinking of taking a loan from my sister but I guess she will start nagging at me again. Hahahah. I think the best is till work for what I want. Besides, for all I know by the time I get my first pay, the price might drop again. Well I'm betting on it hope I can still find the magic card in Singapore otherwise I might need to go to "Truly Asia" to look for that Magic card.

Hmmmm, doubt I'll be going anywhere this Chinese New Year though. Most of my friends won't be free and seriously, it's really going to be a real boring Chinese New Year again. Parents will probably go back to Malaysia and I'll be staying. All my aunties and uncles will leave at night and I'll be left alone with my maid and my grandmother with my 4 dogs. All shops are closed and I doubt anyone will be free though. Argh, we shall see how it goes bah.

Well I guess I'll just stop here. Nothing much to blog about already. Good night guys, have a great week ahead. I'll update you guys soon.

2008-01-11T23:58:00.001+08:00

Haven't been updating. Was kinda busy with stuffs. I guess I'll just keep this post short. To make it simple, I faced problems and now I'm kinda struggling to solve it. It's not simple at all. Wonder if this is just a test from above to make me stronger or just to make a fool outta me. Took a "day off" for me today and went out to have a bit of fun. In the end it's like those kinda typical day that everyone steps on your tail and all the small things irritates you.

Argh, don't feel like talking about it anymore. Meeting the other 3 later for ball. I'll update you guys soon.

2008-01-02T18:55:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to everyone?? Hmmm, a bit too late?? Haha, kinda lazy to update for past week. Life is still alright, still alive. School started today and well what to say? School is still the same bah. Everything and everyone. Choke got a real cool haircut lah, I mean cool as in cooling. Haha, reminds me of my hair back in the Secondary school days.

Had Bah Kut Teh with Shu Jie and Choke earlier at Jurong East market. Whoooo, it's really good. I was craving for it for quite a few days already. Whooo, really had a contented meal. Well can't eat it too often, I won't want to gain a few more kilos. LOL.

Damn, I really want to get a NDS Lite lah. Crap man, if only I was a kid where I can actually bug my parents till they buy for me but too bad, I'm no longer young, seems like if I want something I have to get it myself. To think of it, I think I'll only be playing a few games on NDS bah. Prefer to get a 2nd hand one but seems like they are not many good deals out there. I tried Mocca but the details and stuff are damn vague. Well I guess I just have to wait.

I think I need a part time job soon. I just want to have more money for everything. With money I can buy things I like and stuff. Anyone and jobs to intro???

Ha, I guess I'll update you guys soon bah. That's more or less about it.

2007-12-23T17:05:00.000+08:00

Christmas is just 2 days away. Think I'll be staying at home for Christmas though. Got nothing on for this Christmas. Besides, I don't feel the festive joy or whatever thing at all. I believe Choke will be working. Well speaking of which, I remember the Christmas and New Year 2 years ago. I was still working as a waiter at Tanglin Club and I remember I was clearing the plates while they were counting down to Christmas. Quite sad to think of it. In the end had to go home damn late and I remember the next day I'm working morning's shift.

Damn, I really wish I can drive soon, it's so convenient, can save a lot of trouble, traveling time is more predictable and many others. Well it's really getting expensive to own a car. Petrol is one of them. Argh, really sucks man. I've been watching movies for the past few days. I remember that time I actually watched 7 movies in a row. Guess I've put on weight during this few weeks. I think it's because when I watch movie, I enjoy biting something but when I'm playing games I won't really be hungry since I'm so engrossed in the game and besides I won't have free hands to eat. I'll tend to eat potato chips whenever I watch movies. Guess time for me to stop those potato chips. Haha.

Well I guess I'll stop here, I'll update you guys soon.

2007-12-17T15:25:00.000+08:00

My uncle passed away on Saturday morning at 3+ am. No doubt we might not be really close but we do have quite a lot of happy memories when I was pretty much younger. He will let me play fire crackers for free, take me out on a spin on a bike and stuff and now he's gone. To think of it, how people you love can leave this world so easily. I remember the last time I've seen him is during Chinese New Year and he looked pretty fine. I think it's really hard for my mum. She was telling me that he looked so much better compared to last time 2 weeks ago and just a few days ago she received a phone call from my aunt in Malaysia saying that he passed away.

She told me that he's like the "worse" brother in the entire family. He actually took drugs when he was younger, had tattoos all over his body, went into jail before and a lot of other stuffs. One thing that I admire about him is that no matter how "bad" he is, he still respects my grandmother. No matter how poor he may be, living on instant noodles and stuff but he will still give money to my grandmother. That's really filial of him but now he's gone and will never come back.

I think there's really nothing much that we can do about it. I'm just trying to imagine how hard it will be for my grandmother and my uncles and aunts. Well I think it's better to stop talking about him already otherwise I'll get so emo

Well the past week has been alright bah. EG paper was quite easy to me but AEL isn't. Seems like almost ALL of the year 1 students are struggling with AEL. I asked some of my classmates and they actually told me that till now they still have no idea what the hell AEL is. I'm glad that my tutor for AEL is not the same fella for my lecture otherwise I'm really dead meat.

Spend most of last week staying at home playing old school computer games and also taking care of the little one. Went to town on Thursday just to walk and do some window shopping alone. Did visit the arcade but didn't stay for long. Perhaps I've grown out of the arcade life already. Think it's quite a good news to hear eh?

I was watching Star Awards last night, in fact I spend almost the entire day watching TV yesterday. Also watched "13 going 30" before I sleep. The show was alright, a little extreme showing how complicated an adult's life is but I really like the way they did the last scene. Not a really bad show but not that amazing though.

Alright, time for me to watch another movie now, haha, I'll update you guys soon.

2007-12-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

Ok, finally back to update. Nothing much really happened, the usual stuff in life. Hmmmm, well finally going back to lessons normally, I mean not skipping most of them. I think I'm used to life in school already. I think I did take quite a long time to adapt to Poly life but yea, it's better than nothing. Exams this week, took ENGMEC earlier on, EG2 is later and AEL on Wednesday. I'm still more or less worried for my AEL bah. Seems like I know the basic concepts but also seems like I still have quite a lot of stuffs I still don't know.

Hmmmm, spend most of my time recently watching movies online or anime. Nice way to kill time though. Especially watching the movies online. I was watching Home Alone over the weekends, I did watch a few times but yea, it's still funny. Haha, watched Click, damn, I though all Adam Sandler shows like super funny but this one is different, it's still funny but it's like super emo before the twist for the ending. Really good show.

Holidays are here and I believe Choke will be working and Cumber will be with his company of girls. (I'm not sure if it's true for Cumber's case) Guess I will be rotting most of the time during the holidays bah. Need to take care of baby Katelyn. Uncle Tong will be serving the nation soon, sighs, I really wonder how will he look like on his first book out. I can't really imagine him botak. Hahaha.

It's the rainy season again, guys do take care, seems like a lot of people are falling sick around me due to the weather. Take care guys, eat more orange, drink more water and also sleep with your blankets. Hahaha. I guess that's about it, I'll update you guys soon.

2007-11-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

Ok, it's a Sunday night, in other words, start of another week. Sighs. Watching "The Peak" on Channel 8 now. It's shown on TV quite some time back but don't remember watching the show so now watching it lor. Damn, lessons starting at 8 tomorrow, AEL tutorial for 1 hour followed by a 2 hour break. Quite sad man, I need to go back home to help my grandmother to run some errands before going back to school at 12 for my next lesson. Too bad Choke will not be joining me for the last lesson tomorrow, guess I'll be kinda bored bah. Well time will past really fast when I daydream in class bah. Haha.

Hmmmm, well I remember the conversation with Ah Lim. He started with "Eh, you want to do stunt or not?", I asked him "What kind of stunt? Miss 1 week of lesson ar? Siao". He then told me "no lah, this one is new stunt, remember the last time you went for ALL the lessons for the week?" Man indeed that's a good stunt, really can't remember the last time I went for lessons for the entire week. There's someone to mark my attendance when I don't turn up for lesson. Haha. Not exactly something good I guess.

Well spend most of last week helping Alex to move his house bah. Just glad that he found a new place to stay bah, no doubt it's a bit further but it's still ok bah. Weekends still ok lor, went out with Choke and Cumber on Saturday, went out and kinda walk aimlessly bah. Just hang around lor, beats staying at home. Today was quite ok as well, woke up at around 12, had lunch and went out with parents and had dinner. Nothing really much lah, just another typical weekend.

Well I think I'll end here bah. I'll update you guys soon.

2007-11-19T02:58:00.000+08:00

Wow, how long was it already??? LOL, been kinda lazy to update bah. Been SOOOOOOO busy with school stuff (if you believe me). HAHAHAHAHA.

Well too many stuffs to update lah, in short, I'm quite occupied with stuff bah. First is hell lot of outings bah. Overnight fishing and all those stuffs. Been going for almost every lesson now, Sammie, don't need to worry. Hahaha.

Hmmmm, actually nothing really much to post about bah, this few days kinda nua. Nothing much lah. I think keep this post short bah, too many things to say till I have nothing to say. I'll update you guys soon.

2007-11-04T01:39:00.000+08:00

Well last night was a wonderful one. Went to booze at Eski bar with Cumber, Choke, Shui Nan and Uncle Tong lah. Thanks to Mr Choke, all of us were sweating like mad because we are lost. Haha, can't really blame him also lah, Shui Nan didn't really specify which Eski bar to go and he thought it's another one. In the end we went to the place where Choke used to work. It's a interesting place, as the name suggests, it's cold lah. I really like the ambiance of the place. There were 2 cute waitress though, haha, Shui Nan got 1 of the girl's number. Hahaha. I really won't mind going there to just chill and booze lah, really good place. As usual, Uncle Tong was in the limelight. He did all sorts of weird things, including his famous 377A. Went to Mac after we are done for supper before walking back to the bus stop to take our midnight bus.

Took bus 8N back and reach home at around 4.10. Went back, bathe and lie on the bed for quite some time. Tired but can't really sleep ar, kept tossing and turning till like 7+ before going to sleep. Not really sure why though but had weird dreams lah, keep having weird dreams but I can't really remember the details of it though. Argh, not important though.

Initially Choke wanted to fish with Alex but sudden change of plans, he's going to Malaysia with his Mum instead. Cumber went along and after seeing Choke's mum off, they told me that they went around JB eating and stuff. Kinda expected from them lah. Met someone at AMK and Choke SMSed me slightly after I met the person and jio me to play pool at Mambo with Cumber. Went to meet them for pool, al of us suck lah, don't know why also, all those straight shots also can miss. Went to the famous Prata place after we poke balls. Ordered Mee Goreng with Mutton. Left at arnd 12+ and took 157 back.

Hmmmm, Choke says he's plan to fish tomorrow though, wonder what plans does he have in mind. It will be bad if we go Marina South to fish till night since I have lessons at 8 though. Sighs, really sucks to go out on a Sunday. Man I so prefer holidays.

It's been 3 days already, our main contact is still through MSN though, didn't dare to call her anymore, still prefer to stick to SMS and MSN though. I'd to see her in person. Doubt I have the courage to ask though, might need someone to help. It's also kinda early to tell bah. Hope she knows that I'm really interested to know her, argh, hope she reads this.

It's time for me to go, tired already, good night peeps.

2007-11-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. I think it's lung infection. Yellowish green phlegm, sore throat, coughing like there's no tomorrow, fever, in short, JACKPOT. Tio everything liao. Didn't go to school yesterday and today. Went to see the doctor today and waited for 1 hour 30 min. Went to the polyclinic of course since it's cheaper but the bill came up to $20.25. Guess it's not so cheap after all.

Tomorrow is Friday and it means something, weekends!! Week 3 of school and I got lab tomorrow so school will end at 3, kinda sucks though but well, better to go. Needa submit my MC for today as well. Hmmm, as usual, got into quite a lot of trouble in school regarding attendance. Guess it's time to get serious. Ok, Sammie, I know what you want to type so yea, I promise we will attend lessons. Guess it's time for us to start to do well. Gotta make my life meaningful.

Well nothing much to blog about already, feel sleepy after eating those medicines, will update you guys soon. Cya.

2007-10-29T01:58:00.001+08:00

Well Happy Belated Birthday to Cumber. Pai seh ar, blog late so that's why I saw belated.

Hmmm, went out the entire day today. Went out in the morning and meet some people and settle some stuff lah, nothing much actually. Went home awhile and decided to meet Cumber and celebrate his birthday together with Choke and Uncle James. James is spamming me with all his high level lame shit lah, it's lame but it's really funny lah. Crap. Met them at Bugis only to realise that Billy Bombers close down already. In the end went to Plaza Singapura and had Pasta Mania instead.

Well it's ok lah, ordered a Pasta each and a 13 inch pizza. Ordered Creamy Chicken, still prefer Spicy Chicken though. LOL. Damn, on the way back, somehow all of us went a little high lah, talking all sorts of rubbish on the bus. Just before we go back, we still went to Bukit Timah there the Indian shop to have some prata. Ordered 4 pieces and the fella likes Choke a lot lah, gave us 5 pieces instead. Had Milo Dinosaur and yea, we finally left lah.

All of us kinda like wanted to go somewhere else lah, sucks going out on Sunday and the fact that school starts at 8 later and ends at 5. Damn it man, so not funny at all. It's going to be a long day ahead. Oh crap, haven't done my research on my motivational story for Tuesday's presentation, damn. All of a sudden I feel that I got so many things undone. It's going to rain soon I guess, start to hear the thunder and stuff. Wow, weekends are gone like that, now it's the start of a new week again, sighs. Can't seem to motivate myself to get the tempo for schooling. Guess before I motivate people for my IS, I better motivate myself.

Oh man, just remembered another thing, gotta stay back after lessons tomorrow to kinda like rehearse the act for Tuesday. It's so not funny at all. Wow, that's another thing left undone. Seems like it's really REALLY going to be a long day ahead. Argh, don't feel like going for lessons at all. Just want to sleep a few more hours but I know it's impossible.

It's 2.27 now and I think it's better for me to get some sleep. I'll update you guys soon. Night peeps.

2007-10-25T02:24:00.001+08:00

New blog song, goes specially out to her.

Well it's late already, gonna sleep now, lessons starting at 9am later. Yawns, night people.

2007-10-24T22:20:00.001+08:00

Here to update again. Well watching "Live The Dream" on Channel 5 as I'm typing. The bands are just simple great, solo performances are just ok lah, not really fantastic but both the group performances really impressed me. The participation as well as the team work is really good. Whoooo. Both bands are really good, I'm neutral because it's not important who wins anymore, both of them are winners already.

Hmmmm, well, the end of the week is coming already. Just needa go to school for 3 hours tomorrow. Not really sure whether I needa stay back for projects though. Gotta think of some motivational stories to motivate people, haha. Damn, I really need to change my glasses, the multi coat like wear off already, means the protective layer on my glasses is gone lah. A lot of scratches also, been surviving on contact lens which I wear most of the time.

---- Start of newsflash ----
Ok, Fendi is the champion for the solo competition. He's the one that looks like Shrek. Haha, a fairy tale ending. Seriously he's must better than that Chinese dude that only has a pretty face. LOL. Man, he lost it, hahaha, he kinda broke down. I really thnk he deserved to win.
---- End of newsflash ----

Alright, sorry for the interruption, LOL, now it's back to me. Went to play pool with Choke today. Met James the uncle for the 2nd time but as usual, he's lame lah, telling me all the rubbish. Went back home after that and saw Mr Regan downstairs so decided to join him and caught up with him for a bit as well as to complain about his girl friend as well. Haha. Happy downstairs before going up only to realise that I have no dinner, haha, not really suprised though.

---- Start of newsflash ----
Ok, for the 2nd newsflash, By Definition won the group competition, not suprised as well. The other group had a great vocal but I feel that they can't connect with the crowd ar, it's more of a singer with 2 guitarist, gel is lacking bah whereas By Definition is really great, it's really a band lah. Well like mentioned earlier, both group are the real winners no matter whoever won for the group competition.
---- End of newsflash ----

Well I think I got nothing much to type already lah, quite a dry day. Well time to start to type my emo part of my blog again. Haha.

Well my dear girl, it was really a comfortable chat with you in the afternoon. Well I think you understand why I made that choice. It was a really great conversation with you. I'm really quite troubled about the question you asked me earlier. I think I can answer you now. I have to admit that I still love you but I really have no plans to get together again. You should know me well enough. Seriously, I really prefer this special relationship that we are having now, it's must better at least I believe no pain will be involved. I really hope you can understand it, you are a smart girl, I know you will get it, it's just that whether you want to accept the fact or not. Well I guess it's time you should accept it. Time to let go my girl.

We are just like 2 parallel lines, the things we are looking for are so different. Not just the things in life but also our personality and stuffs. Parallel lines are not supposed to meet and will never meet no matter how far we travel, we will never meet. Best is keep our distance as parallel lines and maintain that special relationship bah. That's the best thing right now, I may be selfish but I believe if we carry on, we will just be victims of this relationship, hurt. Victims of our own actions.

2007-10-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

Ok, been quite some time since I last blog. School is quite ok, the usual stuffs lah. Well just done talking to Sammie and Choke, feeling abnormal now, feeling damn high. Talking rubbish all the way in the MSN chat we had earlier on. Well guess Sammie should do just fine, since he already had a plan and all those already, nothing should really go wrong, well at least the percentage is surely lower than mine. LOL.

Hmmm, went fishing at Chinese Garden there with the nice beer can, LOL. Had KFC for lunch, broke until need to let Choke pay, feel so pai seh at times. Sighs............................. Owe him so many favour. Wonder what flavour he wants.... Ok, lame, I mean super lame.

Well back to what happened earlier on, we went to Yu Hua and play some balls. Quite fun, entertaining I would say and learn some new (dirty) tricks from Choke, as usual. LOL. Alex fetched us back as usual, his driving is still, you know, scary???? Or I should say fast bah, but still scary. LOL. Can;t find any other words to describe.

Well desktop ki chia liao, think power box pai liao, sians, haven't been playing 2moons for a week already. Still thinking of how to psycho my dad yo get a new desktop for me. He will surely ask me to repair but the com's lifespan is going to be up liao lah, just like saying since that old man is dying, fuck care lah, let him die, don't bother to cure him. OK, I was just kidding. Hmmm, I wonder if any sons or daughter will say that to the doctor if their old man is diagnosed with Cancer or what. Well guess not but somehow we will say that when it happens to things but not humans.

Just like that time during the bird flu they said that if the farm has a bird flu case they will immediately kill all the chickens from that farm but during the SARS period why don't they start to kill people that contacted SARS??? LOL. Well not point thinking about it lah, just another question with no answer. The answer will most probably be very vague like, "because we are humans." So what??? LOL. (I guess I really have nothing to do and decided to type about this)

Ok, I think I better stop before I talk about the cows and the chickens or even Spongebob or Scooby Doo. Ok, I think you all what I mean, gonna type my emo paragraph soon. Eh, you all don't steal ar, kao, nothing to type then steal my stuff, you all know who you are!! LOL.

Hmmm, well after that time maybe we kinda broke the barrier between us?? I still want to know more about you. I mean I really want to know how you are right now? Sensitive I may be but I really wish to know if you are happy. You should still remember what I promised earlier on. Well it isn't our fault for our special relationship today, if you really want to blame I will say it's mine. Maybe I looked too much into the problems between us but seriously, if we can't even overcome this small problem, what makes you think of the boulders in our path of life that we will face where we can't even overcome the pebbles in front of yous?? I'm not regretting now and I can more or less know how you feel from the way you talk to me.

Seriously, I can still read you like a book, even till today, even when you called me earlier on and the SMSes. I really don't want you to waste time anymore and seek for the right person. A relationships is not about picking up, it's about letting it go. I've let go already, how about you?? Maybe you should learn. I'm not being cold blooded but I think that's the best solution. I should say the only option. All I want is to maintain our special relationship that we are having right now. Lastly, please be, happy.

2007-10-16T20:05:00.000+08:00

Well it's been a long time. A really long time. Well nothing really happened during the last few weeks on holidays lah, just playing games lor. Today is the 2nd day of school and it's really fine. Nothing much really happened.

Well yesterday went to school but in the end Choke and I didn't go for lessons. LOL. It's like go school and pon lessons. Well it's not the first time already though. Reach school at around 7.50, after our usual break then went to Canteen 1 for breakfast. Went to the library to watch movies agian, as usual lah. Well went home after "school" and continued playing games lo. Desktop spoil at night, damn it man, now can't even play games lo, sighs. Well Choke will be coming over to take a look though.

Today is quite alright, quite a lot of interesting things happened. Especially for my first lesson. I choose "story telling" for my IS module, LOL right?? Well I'm glad I made the right choice, haha. I shall not blog about the details but it's seriously fun lah. LOL. The 2nd half of the day is crap man. Lessons are so boring and I'm like damn tired lah. Well tomorrow school will be crap as well, 3 hour break, lucky choke is coming over, otherwise we needa think of ideas to kill time. I'm so glad that my timetable is quite good now, Thursdays and Fridays are damn slack, great way to end the weekend. Haha.

Well talk a lot to Jing Kwang during AEL earlier on. Started talking about relationship issues and both of us trying to act like we got ink. Started talking about the ironies of life and how it sucks. Damn, we could have gone on forever. Argh having a headache, think I'm going to sleep now. Night people.

You seem really happy with your life but I really wonder if you are really happy. Somehow you show me that you are happy but the things you say always contradicts with the message you want to convey. I just hope that you are really happy, I mean REALLY happy. Well I guess I will just look at you from far, nothing more or nothing less. Just want to see you happy. I wanted to say so much but seems like it got stuck or something, sighs. Hope you can find the right person for yourself.

2007-09-20T03:51:00.000+08:00

Sighs, it's like 3.52 now and I'm emoing. For no reason. I'm just not myself lately. School's fucked up. I wonder what's next. What season is this?? Everyone is feeling fucked up inlulding myself. Well I thought I can just have fun and forget about it but seems like it always comes back to haunt me. Seriously, I think it's really time to do something about myself lah. I suck at everything. I know I did say this before but I seriously think that if nothing is done, I'm going to be in this state forever, a failure.

I've been disconnected from my friends lah. I really wonder how are they doing now. Damn it man, I don't want them to think that I will approach them only when I need them because that's so not true at all lo. I don't know what's happening but seems like all the bad things are happening to me and all the people around me. Sighs.

Guess tomorrow will be another long day since I'll be busy. Sorry ar Choke, seems like whenever you guys are meeting up, I'm always busy. It's not about 3 weeks before school starts again and I think this coming semester, I'll want to do well. Not to prove to others but also to prove to myself that I can do it. I don't want to doubt myself again. There's no limit to a human, it's all in the mind. I CAN DO IT!!!! I'm going to be good at everything. I'm going to set a few targets for myself and I'm going to achieve it, you guys just wait for the good news.

Well I'm going to sleep now, quite tired already but I guess I'll be lying on the bed staring at my ceiling.

Zombie's back for blood.

2007-09-14T04:13:00.000+08:00

Well how long has it been already??? LOL. Damn lazy to blog lah. Everyday is more or less the same thing. Nothing much really happened the past week as well. Well changed my blog song as well. No more emo songs, haha, just a nice song about life bah. Well it's one of my all time favourites, more to come when I feel that there's a need to change songs. Haha. Well don't you all think that this song is nice?? Quite meaningful but well one thing bad is that the song is rather short though. A nice simple song with only a vocal and a guitar.

Spend most of the time now at my dad's pub or just at the arcade lo. More into selling Version 2 cards now. Well I make a nice profit out of it so why not? Went to Bugis earlier on to collect the binder for someone as well as to buy a card from someone. It's a female Legend card, well not useful but I just want to collect it since the art of it looks cool.

Damn, I'm supposed to have dinner at Sakura later on but parents might ask me to follow them to Malaysia. Damn it man, it's so not funny at all lah. Of all days man. Sighs, well things doesn't seem to look good, might have to give this dinner a miss. Was watching "My Wife Is A Gangster" on Sobcast. It's kinda like a online video streaming rubbish lah, aiya, in short you can just watch shows off the web lah, something like youtube but I heard that you can actually catch Live EPL matches aired on ESPN and other sports channels but as usual, it's a bit laggy lah. Well for budget people like me, it's so useful lah. LOL.

Hmmm, it's 4+ liao lo, think I better go sleep now before my mum wake up and feed the baby. If she sees me still awake, she will nag till it never ends. Haha. Oh ya, I guess I'll more or less be working full time at my Dad's place, Whooooooo, extra income but well I've got no night life and I'll have to work on weekends where people come out to have fun lah, argh, who cares, so long I have money.

Well anyway, I think I better go off now, I'll updated you guys soon (hopefully).

2007-09-02T19:23:00.000+08:00

Alright, it's Sunday and I just woke up not too long ago. Yesterday and this morning was really fun. Went to Bugis to watch the finals of the Sangokushi-Taisen tourney and in the end, a black horse, with a disgusting deck (to me) won the competition. Well our clique wanted to leave before the prize presentation but in the end, we decided to wait and look at what title, in the end, he's awarded with the title, "hole master". Dong Zhu. We were like lmao lah. We really laughed when they presented the title to the winner. LOL. Man, to me, it's really Singapore's disgrace using that deck lah, I wonder in future, if he goes to other countries and maybe teach them. He will teach them that deck and all you need to do is just push your cards up. LOL. Disgrace.......

Well apart from that, TKA is open till 6am in the morning just for the Sanguo Manics. It's the launch of Version 2 yesterday. I did play a few rounds, got a few items but I don't use them at all. LOL. Unlocked a new Heihou too, I think I got 14 Heihou now, 2 more to go. LOL. Coms are more clever now, they really know how to think now and not just spam their skills like mad. It's really good. The entire machine is red, like Chinese New Year, just that they lack the mandarin oranges. Haha, I'm just joking. I'm actually crazy enough to stay till 6am and take the first train back. Hahaha, well it was really fun lah, trying out the elephants and walking around the arcade that has no people there at all.

Hmmmm, going to Botak Jones tomorrow at Clementi, still deciding what to do after eating since I can't play anymore Sanguo at Clementi since my IC card has already converted to Version 2 already. Well I guess we will just rot at the coffee shop. Hmmm, alright, time to have dinner or breakfast. I'm not even sure which is which. Haha. I'll update you guys soon.

2007-08-30T18:28:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm, overdue post again. Well Sunday was alright, didn't win of course. Haha. Went to Clementi with Yi Cai Han Jie and Kulost. Went for Botak Jones after some games at Clementi. Well it's not my first time eating Botak Jones but it's really good lah. LOL. Hmmm, weekdays are the same things lo. Stay at home helping people do things or taking care of baby Katelyn. Been raining these few days and I really love the weather. Haha, really good weather to sleep.

Weekend is coming again, planning to sell some version 1 Sanguo cards on Saturday before going to Bugis to catch the finals. Well Version 2 is finally coming to Singapore, it's rumoured that right after the tourney, they will install the Version 2 software. What's more, Japan's most recent Champion Quan Wu Jiang is coming to Singapore tomorrow too. He will be at Bishan and AMK hub tomorrow. Well some people jio me out to just play with him for fun, I guess the place will be flooded bah, maybe no point going down. Maybe ask him to sign on my backside and don't bathe for the new few months, alright, that was rather lame.

Buddies are working at Suntec and too bad I missed the interview, otherwise I'll be there selling computer stuffs too. It's a much better way to kill time and also to earn some extra cash lah, well, no point ranting now. Hmmm, nothing much to update already bah, I'll update you guys soon, have a nice day ahead.

2007-08-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

Alright, haven't been updating my blog, been in a lazy mode lately, just sit in front of the computer and play games. Well nothing really happened this week bah. Had exams on Wednesday and I'm all prepared to retake that module again, AEL, damn it man. Somehow I just can't really understand the circuits lah, aiya, don't talk about it already. Well it's the holidays again, another 2 month break before the new semester starts. I think I need a job otherwise I'll just rot at home everyday, at least kill time as well as earn some money to spend.

Tomorrow is the day, my big day. Tourney at West Mall. Hahahaha, it will be my debut match. Just hope that I don't get too kan jiong and start doing all those funny stunts bah. I went to West Mall to play yesterday as well as to sell cards, played 1 round with another guy and won, I love my form yesterday, I can do everything right. If only I can have yesterday's form tomorrow. Damn, I really want to watch Secrets by Jay Chou, looks like I better find someone to watch with me otherwise I'll miss that show already. Well worse come to worse I'll just have to watch alone bah, not much of a choice though.

Alright, lunch is ready, woke up not too long ago, haha, I'll update you guys soon.

2007-08-19T17:46:00.000+08:00

Man, been quite some time since I've blogged again. Had a paper yesterday and it was alright lah. Those kinda paper that's not really hard but not really confident of passing. Didn't really sleep the night before, not really sure why though but just can't get to sleep. Friday night was really Sanguo marathon at West Mall. Mr Han Han wants to up to Ba Wang so we all feed him lo. Play all sorts of funny deck and also try as hard as possible to beat my teacher. Well I remember a game when I was too engrossed and I forgotten that I'm supposed to lose, almost won. Ok, sounds a bit funny but I'm supposed to lose. Lucky he whack the castle as the very last second, otherwise really hong gan liao.

I was supposed to go to Junction 8 in the evening after I sell my cards at Bugis but I went back, took a shower and went to lie down. I was SUPPOSED to take a 1 hour nap, in the end I woke up at 11pm. Missed the most exciting tourney. Well Han Jie just helped me register for West Mall, heard from him that I took the last 2nd slot, quite lucky eh. Haha. Hopefully can qualify for the grand finals at Bugis but well, I think it's a fat hope bah. Haha.

Alright, I think it's time to start studying for my AEL, I don't want to leave anymore regrets again. I'll stop here, I'll updated you guys soon.

2007-08-16T05:57:00.000+08:00

It's like almost 6 in the morning now and I can't sleep at all. I went to lie on the bed at around 1+ and I kept tossing and turning until I decided to get up. How am I supposed to study later if I didn't get any sleep. Damn it man. For some reason or another, I'm feeling quite frustrated now. Maybe it's because of the lack of sleep bah. I still need to meet someone at Bishan later, oh man, it's going to be a long day.

Well went to West Mall earlier and play a bit of San Guo. Man my 5 horse sucks big time now. Nothing just seems to go right bah. In the past can anticipate the opponent or count how much mana is left but now, I can't seem to even control my own cards, let alone thinking about the opponent. Well my Mum is up as well. Gotta feed the baby, kinda suprised that she didn't call me to help her.

Man, I'm starting to feel a little tired now. I guess I better go catch some sleep. I'll update you guys soon. Have fun.

2007-08-14T16:29:00.000+08:00

Alright, it's been quite some time since I've updated. It's not because I'm busy or what, just plain lazy bah. Haha. Well the past few days was alright, the same routine, wake up, wash up, go out, come home, play a bit of games and sleep. Man, exams are coming and I've haven't even started. Well today I'll be stuck at home though. Need to look after little Katelyn. I think I better spend some time with my school work. Haha.

Saturday is the first paper, yes, IT'S SATURDAY!! It's really dumb isn't it. Having a paper on Saturday. Well I'll be joing to Junction 8 to sell off my SR Ma Chao. It's one of my favourite card but well if I don't sell it soon, there will be no value to the card. Tourney is coming and I haven't thought of a deck yet. I guess I'll stick with the 5 horse deck bah, still my favourite deck. Haha.

Well I'm playing 2moons now. It's a MMORPG game. It's something like GE but it's easier to play since you have only 1 character. Something bad about it is that you can't "bot" though. There's no auto attack mode. Well that game is just fun bah. Not really hard to pick up as well. Easy to level up too. I've already won't quite a few PvP matches.

Well I think that's about it bah, nothing much to blog about also. I'll update you guys real soon.

2007-08-10T03:05:00.001+08:00

I'm just feeling damn moody right now, maybe I'm tired or too many bad things happened to me bah. Stay at home the whole day because I'm not supposed to go out, wth man, otherwise I could have gone to Sammie's house lah. Watched the National Day Parade over the TV, starting was alright until those performance by the little kids. I really fell asleep from then on, it's so boring lah. Maybe I'm shallow or what but I really don't understand the rational behind it. If it wasn't for the commentators, I won't know a single thing that's happening. Maybe I don't have a flair for art bah.

Maybe I'm petty or what but I have feelings and I can actually remember them in case you don't know. Sometimes you are joking but sometimes I really don't know what are you thinking, I'm just normal, I don't have supernatural powers to know what you are thinking when you say those things you know??? The things you say are like knifes cutting right through my heart, some are even cutting till today. What's worse are the blunt knifes? Can you actually see how many of them are still cutting till today??? Well maybe I was wrong bah, I should still stay alone. I think I should. Fuck lah.

Well received a phone call from Liz again. Man, tomorrow's gone again. Gotta company her till like dunno what time. Dang it man, Liz,, can you look for some other people at times? I'm not the only one that's free ok?? I'm not pushing you around but do try to understand that I have my own life and I promised that I'll take care of you but please don't abuse it. I need my own free time and space to breathe as well. I hope you understand.

Well enough of my ranting. I'll see you guys soon. Oh ya, I think the real Zombie is coming back, maybe some of you all might know what I mean bah. Night people.

2007-08-08T02:09:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOKE!!!!!

Well, back to blog. Today is not such a nice day. No lessons but let my parents know about it, in the end, had to stay at home to look after Katelyn. It's really a hassle to look after her but whenever she smiles at me when I start to talk to her, all the things will just disappear. Guess that's the power of a baby's smile. Well I remember I promised to upload the baby's picture?? Here it is.

Well she's not smiling but well, she's just cute lah. Haha.

Anyway, my grandmother is not feeling well. I think it's indigestion bah. She says that she feels bloated and she vomit just now. Man, I went down just now to check if the clinic is still open. Damn it man, it's SUPPOSED to be open till 2am and I went at around 1.10, it's already closed, fuck it man, lazy idiots. Went to the clinic and stared at the board with "OPEN TILL 2AM" and it's already close at 1.10, how ironic.

It's Choke's birthday and till now, we have no solid plans of what to do later. All we know is that we are not going for lessons and besides that, we have no idea what we are going to do. Sam is offline on MSN, guess he's sleeping already since he's not feeling well, take care ya. What's more, I'm supposed to meet a buyer later at Bugis, I wonder what time I can make it. I think he's going to be there the entire day bah, nothing to worry about. Haha.

Feeling better already but still feel bloated at times. Still no appetite at times. Well this may be good news though. I was just looking after Katelyn and out of nowhere, I started to think of all the "if only" in my life. If only I cherish her better, If only I didn't let her go, If only I told her how I actually felt that time. Argh, it will go on forever. Bottom line is, don't do things that will make you regret in future, seriously. I think I've made quite a lot of decisions that I regret even till today. Well I think that's part and parcel of our life that makes us grow bah. I can't believe I actually got so emo thinking of all the "virtual" things in my life. Well it's meaningless to brood over it now since it's already over. Guess being forward looking is still the best.

Hmmmm, I came across this image while looking for some stuff, I find it quite interesting.

Guess the hardest part of a relationship is letting go bah. I find the words very meaningful. I let go of my dignity, let go of my character, let go of my stubbornness because I can't let go of you. Dang, imagine if a girl were to say that to me??? Haha, I'm thinking too much again. Why is it always that two people love each other but they can't be together??? That's really the irony of life. I think I really have to learn to let go before I can commit myself into another relationship bah. I think I'm just not ready yet.

Well I think I better stop now otherwise I'll go all emo again. Alright, I'll update you guys soon, night people.

2007-08-05T13:13:00.000+08:00

Crap man, yesterday was a really bad day. It's really FULL OF SHIT. I was down with fever and diarrhoea yesterday. I spent the entire day on my bed yesterday. I had to go to the toilet every 1 hour and it's really bad. Didn't eat anything much yesterday as well. Ate half a packet of Fan Choi and I feel damn floated lah. To the extent that I almost died. Well I'm feeling much better now already, fever already subsided but I'm still shitting like mad. Damn it.

Well updated on Friday as well. Went home after school on Friday and bathe before going out with Liz. Met her at town and just company her lo. Can tell that she's not very happy no doubt she's trying very hard to pretend to be happy. Well she went on a shopping spree, went to buy quite a lot of stuffs. Had dinner with her as well before sending her back. On the way back, we started talking about how we met each other. After that, we started talking about our first relationship, first this and first that. It's all the "firsts". Well at least I get to see her smile from the bottom of her heart on the way back. Well hopefully she's feeling better already.

Well I think that's more or less about it bah, I think I need to shit again, I'll update you guys soon.

2007-08-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

Back to blog. First thing, I missed this morning's last MTPRAC lesson. I was supposed to wake up around 6.40 and guess what, I woke up at 10.47am. Missed my final theory paper and hope everything goes well. Went to school in the afternoon and did some revision before the AEL practical test and I think I did quite well in that exam. I only made 2 mistakes. I'm quite happy with the result because I never thought I can put those components properly on the breadboard. Well all credit really goes to Choke as he's been teaching me how to use the breadboard since last semester for ELTECH. Thanks buddy.

With the end of MTPRAC, it's also the end of my so-called "happiness". Haha, I remember during the first lesson I saw her, I had quite a good impression of her until the 2nd lesson, when I finally know her better. Not exactly a turn off but well, it's not what I wish to see in her. I think she's more or less the reason why I'm looking forward to every Thursday but as I get to know her more, I just know that she's not exactly my type bah. Buddies keep making fun of me about her but well, it's quite alright bah. Now that it has ended, I'm quite ok about it. Haha. I can still remember how it all started, it was just a day after the first lesson I got to see her and Choke use another number and prank me. I did know that it's a prank in the end but well, I kept thinking of her that entire day lah, to think of it, it's so what the hell. Haha. Well I guess it's alright lah. I did have fun. Thanks a lot "umbrella", hope I can still see you around soon. (ok, she won't be reading this post for sure, haha)

Hmmm, I feel like I'm walking down memory lane. My 3rd semester (and more to come for sure) in Ngee Ann Poly is coming to an end soon. I can still remember my first day in Ngee Ann, 21 August 2006. I'm still a freshie then, just following people to every class not knowing where to walk actually and now, it's like at the back of my head. The first person that I talked to is Kenneth and right now, we just walked past each other like strangers, I really don't know whether to hate them or is it my fault that I failed some modules. Well fuck it lah, what's more important is that I have those buddies in school now.

I think I should really start saving up now. I plan to get a 2nd hand car first but I think I still gotta wait for another year and a half before I can actually get my license. I intend to get a 2nd-hand car first. I'm still not sure what car to get leh, I don't have that kinda budget to get those European big ass shit but I'm looking for a car that will turn heads, obviously not for the wrong reasons. I intend to play at 99 turns and get famous there but I know I will need a lot of time as well as the money. Argh, I just want to be good at something. Hopefully that dream will not get dashed. My dream cars are Silvia S15 and the Fairlady Z33. Man, how I wish I can get those cars but the most important thing, MONEY. Crap man, guess it will continue to be a dream.

Hmmm, guess that's all I'm gonna say bah, I'll updated you guys soon, night people.

2007-08-01T01:58:00.001+08:00

Alright, here to update my blog. Nothing much happened to me for the past few days so didn't update you guys. Sorry for it. Well I was reading XiaXue's awhile ago to update myself about their Blog war. It's really entertaining. It all started out when XiaXue decided to post something about the 7 most disgusting bloggers in Singapore and one of them is our famous Steven Lim. Well, of course, Steven Lim retaliated and also decided to join in the fun. I'm not taking any sides here but well I feel that it's really entertaining. Do visit their blogs, trust me, it's really funny. Haha.

Well weekend was ok, spent most of the time at home rotting. Went to school just now for our I&E project presentation. It's finally over, FINALLY. All along I hate IS modules because I seriously think that it's a fucking waste of time especially CATS. COMT and IAC is still alright but CATS is fucking bullshit. Teach us stupid stuff and go to lesson to waste my time. Damn it man, I don't want to think about it. Crap, lesson starts at 8 and ends at 6 later. Buddy not going for afternoon's lesson, OMFG, it's going to be damn boring lah, no doubt debarment list is out, it's still dangerous no to go since he's doing revision for AEL later. Still deciding whether to go or not.

I think it's time for me to start doing something in my life bah. All these years, I haven't really been doing anything. I think it's time for me to plan for the future already. I think I'm old enough to start thinking of the future already. No point spending so much money in the arcades because at the end of the day, all the money can be put to better use. Argh, stress.

Man, exams coming and I'm not prepared at all. At least for the 2 examination modules. Think I should start to chiong already. Met Zhi Yong on my way back home earlier just now and he told me some "secret" technique to pass. He told me that just a few days before, approach the lecturer and ask him to teach you EVERYTHING again. Well I think it will work IF you go back and you really revise. Well, at least something is better than nothing at all. Guess I'll be doing that too.

Alright, it's late already, guess I'm going to sleep now otherwise I can't wake up later. Good night peeps, I'll update soon.

2007-07-27T23:43:00.001+08:00

It was raining this morning and it's really very cold. Woke up, didn't feel like going to school at all. I'm not really feeling well too. Blocked nose with lots of phlegm. Still went to school in the end but didn't go for lessons again. Wanted to watch movies at the library to kill time but as usual, all group viewing seats are taken and we decided to have lunch first. Went to Canteen 2, had our meal and we started telling lame jokes. Really lame jokes. Sat at Canteen 2 until 2 plus and decided to go to Sam's place. Cab down because someone forgotten to top up his EZ-Link again.

Went to his place, first thing Sam did, "CARPARK!!!! SEE LAMBO!!!!" He was running around the car park like a idiot trying to look for the more "expensive" cars at the basement. Lol, I can still remember the sight, he really looks like a kid. Went up to his place and played X-Box, played Soul Calibur 2 and NBA Live 2004 as well. It was really funny when we played NBA because the team is like super weird. Everyone is sprinting like mad and the pace of the game is so damn fast lah, really funny. LOL.

Left his house in the evening to have duck porridge before playing ball. It started to drizzle a little but by the time we reached the court, it more or less stopped so it's not that bad bah. Shoot some balls and went home. Boarded 174 at KAP and it's fucking packed lah. Everyone in the bus is giving that fucked up faced lo, including the bus driver. Fucked up day man. Spoil my mood for the entire journey back man, fucked up people.

Max Tune 3 doesn't really interests me, still deciding whether want to play or not. Sometimes I just feel so useless in life lo. Take a look man, I'm good at nothing and I'm just fucked up lah. I can't study for nuts, I've got no achievements and any sort of that bullshit. The only thing is that I can play games but fuck it man, what's good about playing games??? It's not going to get me any dough, just makes me end up spending more.

I&E presentation is on Tuesday and we haven't done anything yet. I'm more or less struggling for AEL because I can't really get all those formulas in my head. I guess I'm just not cut out for Electronics bah, too many things to calculate. I think I might have a slight problem with EG2 too because I've been missing lessons like mad and I think I'll struggle for the last few chapters no doubt I learned it during Sec 4 already. Aiya, in summary, it's just FUCKED UP.

Guess I'll be rotting at home tomorrow as well, currently don't have any plans to go out and my parents are going for the NDP rehearsal. Guess I'll be home for the entire day unless it doesn't rain and Alex and Choke decides to go fishing bah. Just hope that tomorrow will be a fine day bah. I'm tired already, feel like sleeping, still not feeling very good.

Man, I laid so much shit today, guess I better stop for now, night people, I'm going to sleep already.

2007-07-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

Today no lessons, stayed at home until afternoon and went out. Went to Causeway Point to meet Yu Song and the crazy girl. Went there mainly to try Max Tune 3 and to convert my car. Played a little today. I lost all my skills sia. Everything seems different, I suck at Hakone now. I can't even play Hakone properly lo and I still call it my home ground. Still deciding what car to tune. Well I shall think of it next time bah. I'm at stage 5 of tuning parts now and I got a nice carbon fiber hood with some useless rims. LOL.

School's from 11-1 tomorrow and the weekend is coming. Doubt I'll be going anywhere this weekend though. Not really broke but it's not smart to play games because I'll be really broke if I play either Sanguo or Max Tune. Guess the best thing to do is still to rot in front of the com, somehow I'll find something to do. I wonder where's the best place to go out to without spending any money. Haha.

Hmmm, nothing much happened this few days, guess I'll stop here bah. I'll update you all soon, night people.

2007-07-24T22:30:00.001+08:00

Today, is another nice day. First, I'm not having lessons today so I stayed at home the entire day. Morning was ok, Dad asked me to help him do some stuffs. After that, Choke and Sammie came to my place and we just rot at my place bah. The dogs were entertaining them instead of me, well as usual.

We decided to order KFC for lunch and guess what, I think the fella that fried the chicken forgot to add the spices. We ordered Spicy and the chicken tasted worse than original. It's like just chicken, with flour on the surface after being fried. It's really bland but well, I did had my fill so it's alright bah.

Went to watch DVD and they left shortly after that bah. Tomorrow's lesson from 8-6 and I'm still thinking where to go for the break. Sighs, we have no plans at all and I'm more or less broke because I need to get bus pass for the next month later, in other words, $52 gone. Damn it man. Well at least I've something else to look forward to, NO LESSONS ON THURSDAY!!!! Whooo, which means I can rot at home again, hahahaha.

Well guess I don't have anything else to add today already bah. Nothing much really happened today since I've spent the entire day at home. Well I'm off for now, night people.

2007-07-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

Well it's the start of the new week. Today was quite ok, nice weather, I just love the rainy days. Went to Jurong Point before school to meet Choke for a few games before going to school, tio a rare card, not too bad.

Went to school, played a bit of ball before going for lessons and as usual, late for lessons. LOL, well the lecturer is still kind enough to mark us present no doubt we are like 30 minutes late for a 1 hour lecture??? LOL man.

Went to ball after lessons and saw quite a few people there, after awhile, all of them left already, just the first court. Went to play a bit and Sammie was sleeping on the bench. I did take a photo of him, I'll upload it on my next post. Hope he doesn't see this. I think Choke and Cumber did take quite a few pictures as well, so Sammie, stay tuned.

Heard from my friends that MT3 is out today and they tried it already. Well I think I'll transfer my Personal Evo8 over and do some lame stuffs to the car like adding some stupid decals and stuff.

Man, baby is crying now like mad, I wonder what happened to her. Mum said that her stomach feels bloated, think it's because she played too much while drinking the milk bah. Well maybe I need to introduce her, she is my dear little niece, she's about 4 and the half months old already. Alright, I'll post a picture of her very soon.

Ok, I think I'm going down for my break soon, I'll update you guys soon. Night people.

2007-07-22T16:20:00.001+08:00

First things first, Happy Birthday to Sammie the Emo Prince.

Alright, seems like I still created another blog in the end. Damn bored now, got nothing to do. Last night went out and it was ok. Well nothing really much in my life bah. Oh ya, can someone help me? I can't seem to access Cbox, it will show forbidden, what's happening??? Someone help please.

Last night I was just talking to Choke about a person's limit. I'm starting to believe that everyone has a limit. I don't really believe it initially but I'm really starting to believe it. I can't really explain it but I think it's just a random thought bah.

I think that's about it bah, nothing much to blog about today. Still need to touch up a little with the new skin. I'll keep you guys updated soon bah.