Dad, I know you made the choice and we all respect it. I know it's hard for you, a active person, always running around new places, trying out new things to be confined at home, staring at 4 walls everyday. I know you took the easier way out for yourself as well as for us. Don't worry about us, I've already grown up and I'll take your place at home. I'll look after mum and sister, as well as your little granddaughter.

Ah ma told us your Kai Ye brought you away and told us not to worry about you. I believe you are with ah ye now, telling him about me as well as his great granddaughter. Rest assured that I'll grow up into a person like you, well respected by everybody. I just want you to know that we all love you and we will remember you always. Thank you daddy for accompanying me for the past 20 years of my life. I will miss you..

Rest In Peace Daddy.

Dad, stop sleeping, it's time to wake up already. We are all waiting for you at home, little Katelyn is calling "Ah Gong Ah Gong" everyday. Hurry up open your eyes and wake up!

Read his post earlier on and decided to let the hidden chapter out.

Z didn't like her at all. Z wanted to really see who likes her more and waiting to make that first move. Both E and B are very shy people. They never let others know what they are feeling but I guess Z can somehow tell. Z wanted to give both E and B the killer blow by telling them that he likes her too and is already making his moves but it seems like instead of giving them a helping hand, it seems like he's pushing both of them down the cliff. Z was really guilty because he didn't think that this will happen, he thought that they will fight for their own happiness but the thing is, he didn't expect both to just back out just like that. All of them claim to be buddies but it seems like they don't know what Z has up his sleeve? Isn't it quite obvious that Z is purposely letting both E and B knows that he likes her. It's like telling them secretly that if you don't act, the girl will be gone. The message he is trying to deliver is that the girl will be gone BUT Z WON'T BE THE ONE TAKING HER AWAY!

One fine night, Z realised that her manager has like something for her and it's not as simple as it seems. Z found out that her manager likes her and is like super protective over her. The manager LIKES HER AS WELL but she is scared to like offend her because the manager treats her quite good and therefore she decided to like turn all of them down. Till today Z still wants to get both of them but it seems like none of them really cares about each other now because of her. I believe that Z used a wrong approach to solve the matter. If B and E still thinks that Z really did wrong this time, he will apologise but he wants both of them to know his true intentions.

It's really been quite some time. Well I guess just to cut short, I got enlisted to NS and well I got into BMTC school 1 Apache Company. Rowdy people, great bunk mates. I'll really never forget them. We been through shit and of course the happy moments together. Things like field camp where all of the officers tekan us big time and I remember how we always have to high kneel and my knee is not exactly in a very good shape ar. Then there's hand grenade where I remember I was so damn fucking scared when I entered the bay but after seeing Lt Faiz, I really felt better. I guess it's also his job to make us less tense because his life is on the line as well, hahaha.

Well I enlisted on the 031208 and I passed out on the 180309. To be honest, I still miss those guys, people like Raja who never fails to get into stupid trouble, Shu Liang my buddy, Benji Kok who is always late and does things in a super weird manner. Our very own Section Commander 3SG Ibrahim who never fail to knock me down all the time because I have to do stupid things. Well those were the beautiful days.

Now I'm posted to Signals Institute and tomorrow I got like a exercise. It says till the next day but I seriously hope that we can complete everything by night time and pull back. It seriously won't be funny to do everything as they planned because if that's the case then we will end like 3am on Tuesday and we have activities. Speaking of which, I'll be doing guard duty this Friday, in short, 1 less night of CV life at the comfort of my own home but well compared to those people doing guard duty on a Saturday, I think I'm considered lucky already.

Well that's like more or less it for my NS life so far, another 3 more weeks to go before I get posted out to another unit. I guess that's more or less it.

On the other hand, somehow I feel that people around me are like leaving me slowly? I've been having weird dreams of people asking me to take care of myself when they are gone. First is my mum and now it's the crazy girl. Well Amanda is leaving quite soon and the crazy girl will be going overseas most of the time? She just got back from Taiwan but she will be like going to Hong Kong in August? Well she said she got herself a job where she will start to work there for around 3 years and then they will start to like make her fly around. Besides she don't have plans to stay in Singapore already. I guess I'll really be left all alone soon.

Sighs, oh well, let's just pray for the best. I really hope that crazy girl won't leave. If you really have to, please bring me along wherever you will go.

Damn, it's been like really long. Was lazy to like update my blog, nothing much to update. My life was like waiting for time to pass. Nothing really much happened.

Well in just like about 6 more days, I'll be gone already, not that I'm dead though, I guess most of you guys know it bah.

Staying over at my sister's place for the past 5 days already, been really enjoying it, get to sleep in a nice little room, can play their whatever rubbish and best thing is, I can get to watch movie with them in their mini "theater" at night. Watched quite a few movies already. They still took off on Monday just to like company me and stuff, hahaha, somehow makes me feels like I'm going to die anytime soon.

Sad to say, I guess I'll be going back later at night. Still need to do some shopping for my great camp and I still need to work on Friday and Saturday. Now that I think of it, I might consider not to work on Friday so I can just get 1 full day to shop. It seems like time really flies, I was still taken aback that time and now I'm learning to become a real man (I guess).

I thought I was going to be like super emo but no, seems like I'm more or less looking forward to it. I guess it's a good reason for my to throw some of my things while I shave my head and chiong sua in Tekong. Oh ya, speaking of which, I finally got a new aim, I aim to be able to buy clothes without much difficulties, which means. I saw this really nice shirt the other time at G2000 and I was thinking to buy it since they are like having a discount. First thought that came into my mind, the size!! After some hassle, managed to find my size but after that realised why the hell am I even buying clothes. Hahaha. Well I hope after all this rubbish, I can find size for my clothes easier? In short I want to become smaller lah! Hahaha.

I guess it's time for me to sleep already, still got a long day ahead of me.

Oei Amanda, I guess you already knew I'll reserve this special space for you. Well those times with you were seriously amazing. You kinda made me realised that there's actually slightly more to life bah. That slight more is you lo, always creating trouble for me. Well I'm glad you did because you never fail to bring the smile back to my face. You always say that I smile damn weird because you say you know what I'm not smile from the bottom of my heart, shit lah, you think too much already.

Here comes Pauline. I guess you knew it all along but you still played along with me. Sorry that I have to make this decision all over again, I guess I really need to think more about it no doubt you say that I always think too much. I mean I still feel that I'm not mature enough to handle such stuffs. It might be me throwing everything down with the excuse of going to NS but I seriously mean it. You should know me right? Remember what I said the other time when I met you, you were smiling when I told you about my plans but somehow I can feel that the smile "wasn't from the bottom of your heart" as well. (sounds familiar eh?)


Well I'm back from Malaysia. Nothing really much happened. It was raining most of the time when I was there. I guess it's a good thing that I've been staying indoors. I really had lots of time to think and reflect over there (it's a much better term for stone). I mean it's not that I can't think over here but somehow being closer to nature without things like computer and the lack of interesting TV shows are actually much better for my brains. In short, boredom is actually good for you. Haha.

I was really confused and stuff but somehow the trip there kinda made me feel rejuvenated and I'm more or less fresh now. It sounds weird but yea. Thought about quite a lot of things over there. From real simple things to the more current ones that are more or less bugging me making me feel uncomfortable. Well I didn't really think of how to solve it but somehow I had a much clearer view of the situations bah. I guess I shall not continue, want to mai guan zi here.

Went to Mount E with dear Mr Choke today and company him while he's doing his medical check up. Sat there, read the news and had some boredom. Do you guys actually think I'll let go of this good chance to think of stuffs again? HELL NO. Hahaha. Went to walk around town after collecting Geraldine's phone from her work place and send it to repair. Went home after sending the phone for repair for dinner with my parents at the temple. It's like the Birthday or something of Sun Wu Kong and stuff lah. Food there was alright only, nothing special about it.

Hmmm, going for dim sum with Choke in the morning later. Well I guess that's about it, keep ya updated.

You were always there when I needed help.

Are you contented just by living in the shadows, always looking out for me and "jump out" when I needed help?

I seriously think you deserve better but I guess I won't be the one providing it.

You've just stepped onto my territory. Welcome to my grave.

Name: Zombie
DOB: 11/07/1989
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I'm a full time National Serviceman. Been through countless lessons about relationships and I think freezing my heart along with time will be the best option


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